Diigii draws about her feelings. Part 1
So I’ve been having these art feels lately.
Do you guys ever get that feeling that you’ve been working so hard lately and nothing works out? It makes you feel so terrible and it makes you want to drop everything else and just leave.
So ok a for a backstory I’m a fine arts student Majoring in Advertising arts. So I’m at my senior year and we get to choose our thesis category (Illustration, Package Design, AD Campaign, Photography, Corporate Identity, Fashion, etc) I’m under the Illustration category, and I chose this because I enjoy making drawings and these silly illustrations. (Usually half-assed ones)
And so far nothing’s working out and I don’t know if i made the right decision because I chose this category because I thought “I enjoy making illustrations and why not”. I. DON’T. GET. IT. Nothing’s working out.
I forget that I’ve taken up VMA and Exhibition Design electives, and my Packaging Design and Design Theory subjects were considerably my best subjects. And I cried over my Illustration subjects. (But the grades were ok tho) Sometimes it makes me think that “Hey you’re not an Illustrator what do you think you’re doing?”
But this is what I enjoy doing the most, and it makes me happy and I don’t get why it’s giving me a hard time? Thinking about this makes me feel like I’ve made a wrong decision. It makes me uninspired at times (at most times) It makes me feel hollow because have i been living the wrong way? Oh gosh i sound so sentimental.
A lot of people have been so encouraging and nice to me. And i am super grateful for you guys believing that my work is actually something, and if you guys have to know sometimes you’re the only reason why i keep going omg. THANK YOU :’-)
You know who you guys are. I LOVE YOU.
Argh I am not quitting tho, i just wanted to let out these stupid art existential feels I still want to move forward of course. Or maybe i’m just tired and maybe when i wake up the next day or in the future this will all sound so stupid and silly.
Or maybe it’s just the really bad weather. I don’t know. I hope everything will be fine soon.